said to a friend over the phone last night ...

"The best way I can explain how I feel at this point is to have you envision waking up one day and someone says to you, "hey, its over now. You can move on." So you rub your eyes but no matter how many times you rub to clear them, there is a fog all around you. You can see a light, you've been given the roadmap and you know deep down it's going to be amazing but in order to do so; you first have to scrape yourself off the floor, dust yourself off, regain your strength, rebuild up your self esteem, and start walking."